[voice] an idle curiosity in the middle of the night

[maddest]

If you could make the choice to lose one memory, what would it be?

If you don't feel like sharing the details of that moment, answer this instead- if you were really given the choice, not hypothetically in the future, but today, with all the realities and consequences you face, would you let the moment go? And would it change you?

How much of our darkest moments make us what we are?

Comments

[mister-hatter.livejournal.com]

Why not? Lucifer does all the time, and what's good for the goose is good for the gander.

[painhumbles.livejournal.com]

Except there's a line backed up all the way across the block to be Lucifer's gander.

[mister-hatter.livejournal.com]

Oh come now, you know what I meant.

[painhumbles.livejournal.com]

Sure I do, but that don't mean I'm not firmly in the camp of "You probably have a big mancrush on my bro."

[mister-hatter.livejournal.com]

Mm. I'd probably be perfectly content to tell you if I did, but it might be a gross oversimplification. You see, one thing that's become obvious to me, relearning my life here from the outside... I always befriend the nasty ones. I was Yuca's roommate when he was trying to destroy the world, just before he turned his plague of angels loose on all of us. I was giving dear doctor Kurotsuchi lessons in manners after he abducted and tortured me in the name of science, peeling my organs out while I was awake and decorating the room with jars of them. Your brother is the coup de grace in a long string of social suicide attempts. And I mean literal suicide, not some sort of accident of etiquette.

[painhumbles.livejournal.com]

[Uh. Blinkity blink blink?]

Okay. Godspeed on that. Lemme know how that works out for you. [WHY CAN'T YOU JUST GET OFFENDED LIKE NORMAL PEOPLE.]

[mister-hatter.livejournal.com]

Well, I've somehow survived it thus far- so my heart must not really be in it.

[painhumbles.livejournal.com]

Try poisoning the cookies.

[mister-hatter.livejournal.com]

I'd come back!

[painhumbles.livejournal.com]

...Lucifer's cookies.

[mister-hatter.livejournal.com]

Oh.

Well, the result would be the same, and I'd still come back.

[painhumbles.livejournal.com]

I dunno. Lucifer can rip you apart down to the last molecule. Hard to come back from that.

[mister-hatter.livejournal.com]

That's funny, so can I! And I'm reasonably sure that if I did choose to turn on one of you, the Animus would still interfere.

[painhumbles.livejournal.com]

[...Oh right. Break is... Freaky as shit. He kinda makes people forget that.]

.... And suddenly I know why Lucifer thinks you're the coolest ever- and it's not your baking.

[mister-hatter.livejournal.com]

Oh, this is so gratifying, and I don't even remember pretending to be harmless.

[It's like cracking something calcified. Picking a scab. Wrong, but so good.]

Yes, we talk because of what I can do.

[painhumbles.livejournal.com]

I don't know if I feel more comfortable in the knowledge that all that power and you still got vivisected by some schmuck or awkward.

[mister-hatter.livejournal.com]

Well, Adstringendum is a complicated, nasty little place, and apparently my connection here to the Mad Hatter is distressingly... variable.

[painhumbles.livejournal.com]

I'm just gonna forget that I heard the words "connection to the Mad Hatter" come out of your mouth. [Because it's not like he doesn't KNOW this shit. That doesn't mean he wants to be forced to react to HOLY FUCK WHAT IS YOUR UNIVERSE, BREAK???]

[mister-hatter.livejournal.com]

You don't want to meet him? I think you'd like each other.

[So much pouting.]

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[thelightbringer]

Xerxes.

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[mister-hatter.livejournal.com]

I'm not going to hurt baby brother, I promise.

[Video//Private//Unhackable]

[thelightbringer]

Prove it.

[painhumbles.livejournal.com]

[Completely oblivious.] How about... No. [Because all he doesn't know and all he knows are pretty much a smorgasboard of THE LESS I HAVE TO DO WITH THIS UNIVERSE, THE HAPPIER I'LL BE.]

[mister-hatter.livejournal.com]

He'd probably give you tea and candy.

[painhumbles.livejournal.com]

And drives a white van too, right?