[voice] an idle curiosity in the middle of the night

[maddest]

If you could make the choice to lose one memory, what would it be?

If you don't feel like sharing the details of that moment, answer this instead- if you were really given the choice, not hypothetically in the future, but today, with all the realities and consequences you face, would you let the moment go? And would it change you?

How much of our darkest moments make us what we are?

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[mister-hatter.livejournal.com]

You heard me. A little private, unhackable 'Break, what are you playing at?'

[painhumbles.livejournal.com]

And you're telling me this because you want him- or me, let's be honest here- to shove his fist down your throat, right?

[mister-hatter.livejournal.com]

No, no, no, nothing like that.

[painhumbles.livejournal.com]

Ohhh okay. Right. You're telling me this because you're phenomenally, cosmically powerful moron.

[mister-hatter.livejournal.com]

-well, as much as I'd like to fit right in with your family, no. I got permission to play however I like, as long as I am neither hurtful nor cruel.

[thelightbringer]

As much fun as it is to watch you run around figuring out your boundaries--and I do mean that, it's like watching a cat hit an electric fence--if this is some way to sabotage the feel-goods between us and you....

Well, keep going, really. I'm curious.

[mister-hatter.livejournal.com]

Everyone loves watching a good train wreck!

[thelightbringer]

Except the driver.

[mister-hatter.livejournal.com]

[Soft laughter.]

[thelightbringer]

[Pleasantly] Gabriel is right, though. One of these days, one of us is going to reach right into you and pull you apart.

It's probably going to be me, but I wouldn't rule out Raphael.

[mister-hatter.livejournal.com]

I think I remember coming very close to that- Michael stepped in, didn't he?

But Gabriel isn't mad at me. He's torn between amusement and horror.

[thelightbringer]

Mmm.

How badly did your first encounter with Michael go?

[mister-hatter.livejournal.com]

What do you mean?

[thelightbringer]

...Well, first of all he sees you all as a job. And because I haven't killed you yet, you're probably exactly the opposite of what he does like about humans. Or so he's likely to tell himself...

[mister-hatter.livejournal.com]

I thought the first time I met him was with you?

[thelightbringer]

I meant after you returned. You remember meeting him before?

[mister-hatter.livejournal.com]

No- but I've traced the fallout of it like ripples in a pond, all through this place.

[thelightbringer]

What fallout?

[mister-hatter.livejournal.com]

The way things changed, after that moment.

[thelightbringer]

[Soft, demanding:] Tell me.

[mister-hatter.livejournal.com]

No. I don't understand it enough to know I'm right, and I'm not going to pretend to guess.

[thelightbringer]

You traced the fallout, which means there was something to it. Stop playing coy and say it.

[mister-hatter.livejournal.com]

I met him with you, didn't I? Helping you?"

[thelightbringer]

So you remember why my family owes you. Do you remember why you did it?

[mister-hatter.livejournal.com]

Hmmmmm.

[Thoughtful, dragging out the hum.]