[voice] an idle curiosity in the middle of the night

[maddest]

If you could make the choice to lose one memory, what would it be?

If you don't feel like sharing the details of that moment, answer this instead- if you were really given the choice, not hypothetically in the future, but today, with all the realities and consequences you face, would you let the moment go? And would it change you?

How much of our darkest moments make us what we are?

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[mister-hatter.livejournal.com]

Oh.

Well, the result would be the same, and I'd still come back.

[painhumbles.livejournal.com]

I dunno. Lucifer can rip you apart down to the last molecule. Hard to come back from that.

[mister-hatter.livejournal.com]

That's funny, so can I! And I'm reasonably sure that if I did choose to turn on one of you, the Animus would still interfere.

[painhumbles.livejournal.com]

[...Oh right. Break is... Freaky as shit. He kinda makes people forget that.]

.... And suddenly I know why Lucifer thinks you're the coolest ever- and it's not your baking.

[mister-hatter.livejournal.com]

Oh, this is so gratifying, and I don't even remember pretending to be harmless.

[It's like cracking something calcified. Picking a scab. Wrong, but so good.]

Yes, we talk because of what I can do.

[painhumbles.livejournal.com]

I don't know if I feel more comfortable in the knowledge that all that power and you still got vivisected by some schmuck or awkward.

[mister-hatter.livejournal.com]

Well, Adstringendum is a complicated, nasty little place, and apparently my connection here to the Mad Hatter is distressingly... variable.

[painhumbles.livejournal.com]

I'm just gonna forget that I heard the words "connection to the Mad Hatter" come out of your mouth. [Because it's not like he doesn't KNOW this shit. That doesn't mean he wants to be forced to react to HOLY FUCK WHAT IS YOUR UNIVERSE, BREAK???]

[mister-hatter.livejournal.com]

You don't want to meet him? I think you'd like each other.

[So much pouting.]

[Video//Private//Unhackable]

[thelightbringer]

Xerxes.

[Video//Private//Unhackable]

[mister-hatter.livejournal.com]

I'm not going to hurt baby brother, I promise.

[Video//Private//Unhackable]

[thelightbringer]

Prove it.

[Video//Private//Unhackable]

[mister-hatter.livejournal.com]

It's Gabriel. It'll take a lot more than little old me to rattle his cage.

[Video//Private//Unhackable]

[thelightbringer]

Hatter is more than 'little old you'.

[Video//Private//Unhackable]

[mister-hatter.livejournal.com]

You're just angry that Gabriel gets to see him first.

[Video//Private//Unhackable]

[thelightbringer]

No. I'm angry with you because you're playing at something without letting Gabriel in on what it really is. He doesn't know what Hatter can really do, and you know it.

Either tell me what you're doing, or stop it.

[Video//Private//Unhackable]

[mister-hatter.livejournal.com]

I'm not planning, I told you that.

I'm just... changing the rules of the game a little. And while I will take your considerations under advisement, Lucifer, we had a deal- as long as I don't hurt them, you let me do as I please. I asked permission before I began, remember? Are you really going back on your word now?

I never thought of you as a liar.

[painhumbles.livejournal.com]

[Completely oblivious.] How about... No. [Because all he doesn't know and all he knows are pretty much a smorgasboard of THE LESS I HAVE TO DO WITH THIS UNIVERSE, THE HAPPIER I'LL BE.]

[mister-hatter.livejournal.com]

He'd probably give you tea and candy.

[painhumbles.livejournal.com]

And drives a white van too, right?

[mister-hatter.livejournal.com]

Well, it's probably for the best. Lucifer doesn't want you to meet him, either. He sent me a private message just a few replies ago.

[painhumbles.livejournal.com]

.....What?

[mister-hatter.livejournal.com]

You heard me. A little private, unhackable 'Break, what are you playing at?'

[painhumbles.livejournal.com]

And you're telling me this because you want him- or me, let's be honest here- to shove his fist down your throat, right?

[mister-hatter.livejournal.com]

No, no, no, nothing like that.